Hi. Bye.
Click on words to navigate. ^o^
Mitch
Sunday, November 2, 2008
i realised... im not good in anything at all... haha always playing the 2nd fiddle to someone else... neither good in school, nor music, in work, or anything else i take up on or take an interest in... sometimes i realli wonder what's the pt in trying so hard...? haha i know, its to let pple laugh and insult me for what's worth...
its seriously not fun to be insulted (intentionally or otherwise) week after week... to be honest i dunno how i can stand it other den having a black face... i was sure if i dun get out of her hse i would hurl some obscenities and that will be the end of our teacher-pupil relationship.
how she adore my sis i realised... haha she playing the wrong note would just get a soft remark or two(prob cuz she's still a kid). i listened to her advice last week for not trying to play too loud to cover my sis part in the duet n i end up being shoot that i wasn't in class as long as my sis so i dun understand my teacher... brilliant... absolutely bullshit... n what do i get in return? 45 min of insults n her attempts in trying to inflict physical abuse while 'correcting' my hand posture... bitch. damn bitch.........
seriously i felt like telling her i wanna quit today....i just can't stand it anymore... its never enough..... but i just can't stand giving her the satisfaction that she triumph over me, that i give up defeated....
i wonder how long it will be before i find my own domain... im tired of this lifestyle.... seriously sick of it.
~11:17 PM
* * *
i realised... im not good in anything at all... haha always playing the 2nd fiddle to someone else... neither good in school, nor music, in work, or anything else i take up on or take an interest in... sometimes i realli wonder what's the pt in trying so hard...? haha i know, its to let pple laugh and insult me for what's worth...
its seriously not fun to be insulted (intentionally or otherwise) week after week... to be honest i dunno how i can stand it other den having a black face... i was sure if i dun get out of her hse i would hurl some obscenities and that will be the end of our teacher-pupil relationship.
how she adore my sis i realised... haha she playing the wrong note would just get a soft remark or two(prob cuz she's still a kid). i listened to her advice last week for not trying to play too loud to cover my sis part in the duet n i end up being shoot that i wasn't in class as long as my sis so i dun understand my teacher... brilliant... absolutely bullshit... n what do i get in return? 45 min of insults n her attempts in trying to inflict physical abuse while 'correcting' my hand posture... bitch. damn bitch.........
seriously i felt like telling her i wanna quit today....i just can't stand it anymore... its never enough..... but i just can't stand giving her the satisfaction that she triumph over me, that i give up defeated....
i wonder how long it will be before i find my own domain... im tired of this lifestyle.... seriously sick of it.
* * *
About me:
Just a simple person struggling against the currents of life....
Simple Facts:
-> Female
-> Arts Student @ Uni of Melbourne
-> Crappy
-> ?????
Love:
LOVES to Eat!
LOVES to Sleep
LOVES Her Friends
LOVES her love
&
Trying to Love her life
Hate:
Hate is just an emotion requiring some mental tweaking
Wish List:
WISHES that everyone is happy
Wishes for a smooth transition
Wishes for a blissful life
Wishes for good grades & motivation
Wishes for a good career
Memory Lane:
- hey peeps saw this joke... damn funny, a pity im i...
- aw n Food Food
- Power Keep cutting... air-con not working... lucky...
- heh heh yijin sent me this msg last mth ... but i ...
- what can i say about MIS ? Great food... realli .....
- hmm... ok ok ... i think i appear to scare everyon...
- Sick of complaining... but you just feel dishearte...
- hmm since s.i.p started, havent got the motivation...
- sometimes things just dun go your way...not wad u ...
- F-R-I-D-A-Y ooooh FRIDAY! yea baby.... haha k la i...
My Friends:
Alvin
Gek Hua
Hui Ting
Hui shi
jac
Jin Pei
Jo-an
Mastura
Natasha
Miss-queenie blogspot *recommended*
Tatia
Yijin
Heart oF GolD!
Special thanks:
Tagboard