Living as i like it....

Monday, August 18, 2008

hmm... i initially wanted to keep mum abt this event... but since i saw Mdm Meenachi today and viewed the tag of some idiot who post a reply on jon's blog, i was suddenly "inspired" to post the below posts....

Mdm Meenachi was upset when someone gave her a "disagree-filled" form... despite her not so effective teaching, she did fight for her case and at the end of the day, the disagreed form was shredded into pieces, meaning 100% from class T03 agreed that she is a 'good' teacher... true... to a certain extent. Although she has lots to improve.

I believe all can see even Mr. Darshans and Mdm Meenachi as well as other tutors how hard the majority of the main committee has worked. Like what Mdm Meenachi said

" I could have disregard that one piece of evaluation and move on with my life... but its things like this that makes me wonder why am i still staying in this profession"

i wanted to say, the main com didnt come together by choice, we didn't bribe Mr. Darshans to give us a stunning recommendation, it was qualities that he saw in us(or thought he saw in us) that he recommended us to Mdm Meenachi. I was really quite disheartened when i heard what she said about out the journal reflections that our classmates wrote about us.

No one saw how late we stayed back to post those 400 letters, or stayed up till 4 am to tie up the loose ends others seem to 'forget'. No one bothered to come up or volunteered to come with us to KSCC when we had our tortourous meetings.... No one saw or knew that i had to pay extra to shorten my Australia trip for the event preparation... No one saw the sacrifices we had to make in our lives to do so much for the event which for some odd reason became an extra assignment the 6-member team had to take up...

No sub committee member offered to pay Patrick the money for the large sum he had to fork out to rent the cars for location scouts, meetings, or for the actual event itself. Neither did anyone pay us for the numerous smses (in fact we were even blamed for the failure to inform the class bbq [i was tempted to retort: "WHERE THE HELL IS YOUR INITIATIVE???!"]) we ALWAYS HAVE TO SPEND to transmit messages or the EFFORT we put in the EMAIL or listen to us DURING CLASS....

Some gave the excuse of not free,have to study for tests (a task which the main com also have to do), some gave crappy work, some just kept quiet in hope that no work is passed down to them... but even if they had, they toyed with the idea of giving slip-shot work and hoped that the main committee will, being the main committee, clean up after their ass .

but.... after the event...

for some miraculous reason, some woke up feeling 'hardworking' and forget that the main com tried to give them work.... they cleanly forget the excuses they cocked up to evade duties... and with a stroke of a pen, they maliciously wrote false accusations in their journals... Like Meenachi, i felt indiagiant... its times like this you wonder why you didn't backstab, no, report THE WHOLE TRUTH about the rest, but silently bear the weight of the project on our shoulders....

i wanted to make a fuss a big fuss on S.I.T tutorial that day, but it wouldn't have made a diff (as jo-an pointed out) because no one would have admitted, all would play dumb or stupid, but behind our backs snigger that their backstabbing worked. As classmates, the six of us have done what we could, by sharing the fruits of our labour with everyone... we were and ARE STILL aboveboard... we could have backstabbed the inept and lazy like some pple but we didn't...

If we were to meet our maker today, i would bravely look at God in the eye and said, amongst the many sins i've committed, i would have dared to say i've have not once done any legal harm to any TO3 members despite the injustice that was brought upon us.

It disgusts me that there are wolves hiding beneath sheeps clothing...

The thing is... if you were in our shoes... would you have felt the same as us... as human to human would u not be angry if someone discredited your work?? You guys are angry with us... but have you felt about how we felt?

no doubt Jon's words in the email/blog has many words which offended many... but... it is merely another form of expression of the way injustice was brought against us,true that he is blunt ... but the motive of the email was an innocent reason of us wanting to know(if we really did wrong in any areas) the areas which we have to improve through constructive opinions n not annoynomously via journals where there is no chance to reflect upon our mistakes at all. Who wouldn't want this to end this amicibably? when pple are pushed to their limits, that's when sparks fly.....

~10:27 PM

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