Living as i like it....

Tuesday, March 3, 2009

i guess thats the thing with difference in opinion
looks like it seems i cant have the cake and eat it too.

No matter what i say or wad i do, u will never believe me
Just like i wouldnt believe u even if u deny it.
like i say. im sick of quarreling
if u wish to think that i'm only happy with them.....
if u wish to think that the only grp i wont hesitate to go out with is them,
there's nth i can say.

I am happy with them.
you just refuse to believe that i want to be around u too despite everything.

Whatever it is,
i'm thankful for all the things you did for me during these 3 yrs.
tks for the first job at suntec,
tks for looking after shota when i was away,
tks for looking after me when i was sick,
tks for being there for me when i was down,
tks for hearing me out when i needed a ear, or needed someone to walk with cuz im bored
tks for organizing the surprise party last year, along with the mini cards and presents,
tks for consoling me when im pissed with my grades,and putting urself down in order to make myself feel better.
tks for sticking up for me,
along with looking out for me and promising that our friendship wouldnt fade.
and whatever you've done that i didn't write down
(This to me, is worth more than anything, at least i know i had a true friend at that time)

whatever it is,
im just irritated/angry that things are 'given up' just like that.
I'm given a death sentence without given a choice?? oO?
i apologize for airing it out in public, i hate to embarrass myself n u
and i hate to have my blog end up like some war zone
even though the blog is meant for me to vent my frustrations. (kinda dumb since a couple of people already knows my blog.)
i realised i've changed too, but who doesn't?
Even shota learns his lessons after being tricked so many times.

I just want u to know,
what you've done in the past for me,
i Remember.

3 years to end up in anger, accusations and bitterness,
thats nt the ending i wish to have.
But i have my pride and i know u have yours too.
How it ends up, i suppose its up to you,
because i've already put my cards down and am ready to leave the table for good.

Seriously, i'm super baffled as to why it ended up like this?
i'm super curious how u arrive to ur decision.

(at this point it an 'invitation to treat' if you don't wish to den, yea i'll pull out of b3 n ppg for good. So we'll just end every possible contact we may have.)

p/s: IF u think its hypocritical on my part. then i really dunno what to say anymore. I did my part, this is my form of giving in. I repeat again, this post is meant for you and you alone. Because i know you are reading this deserted blog.

~12:36 AM

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About me:

Just a simple person struggling against the currents of life....
Simple Facts:
-> Female
-> Arts Student @ Uni of Melbourne
-> Crappy
-> ?????

Love:

LOVES to Eat!
LOVES to Sleep
LOVES Her Friends
LOVES her love
&
Trying to Love her life

Hate:

Hate is just an emotion requiring some mental tweaking

Wish List:

WISHES that everyone is happy
Wishes for a smooth transition
Wishes for a blissful life
Wishes for good grades & motivation
Wishes for a good career